I am back at college. Settling in. Funny thing is that I have been back for almost a week now. It doesn't feel right. Well it does, it just isn't the same as being home. Funny thing s that at home I kept thinking about things I needed to do one I got back to college. I found a church I think. They have a shuttle, so I can go on a Sunday morning even though I don't have a car. It's what would be considered a mega church. I think there was well over 2,000 people in the Sanctuary. The service was powerful, and they have a heart for missions. As my mom said, "I feel like this is your kind of church." I think she's right.
I am being reminded almost constantly to find my calling. Honestly when I think about societies expectations, I feel like my calling is unorthodox. I want to be a foster parent. Full time, to as many children as I can successfully minister to. I want to change there lives, even if only for a moment. Part of me still questions why I am even at school, but I am reminded that this is where God wants me. I don't have to understand, or even see the big picture. I know only what the yearning of my heart is telling me. We were talking in class today about not needing all of the answers. God will show you the way and sometimes He only gives you a moment of clarity, or a piece of the puzzle. That's okay though. Just put your trust in Him and let him guide you.
I got another A on a paper. 49 out of 50 points. The only thing I got docked for was grammar. I am not completely aware of commas or where and when I am supposed to use them. As a result I have been putting too many in. I asked for a suggestion and she told me, "When in doubt leave it out." Until I get to Rhetoric and Research next semester, that will work. The other thing I realized is that all my grades are getting better. Except math. I am currently failing math. When I talked to my adviser yesterday, he let me know that they had changed the requirements of statistics. I no longer have to take Algebra before Statistics. I am dropping the class. We both think that is the better option, because it won't affect my GPA at this point. If I were to continue with the class, it would be better to retake it so I could improve my GPA. As it is it won't affect my Financial Aid, and I still have time to officially withdraw. This is a huge relief! For now, I think that's it.